The cold wind from the air conditioner sent chills straight to my body.

It was the middle of the night, I began feeling lonely. I felt like cuddling.

I brought out an old thriller novel from my drawer and I tried to read but it was difficult to concentrate. I tried to go back to sleep but I kept rolling from one corner of my bed to another.

Chuks was still on my mind. I missed him and wanted to talk to him so badly. I wanted to talk about us. I wanted him to still has feelings for me and wouldn’t mind us getting back together.

But what was I thinking? Ronke had already told me to forget about Chuks, and she was right.

I knew I had to move on, but it wasn’t going to be easy. With chuks I had made plans, like marriage and so on.

Uh! The stress of starting all over again with someone else.

I got up from the bed and picked up my phone from the top of my dresser. Shivers ran down my spine as I impulsively searched for chuks’ number and dialed it.

The dial tone began ringing immediately. I waited patiently until it stopped ringing, there was no reply.

I relaxed a bit. As I was about to drop the phone, it started ringing.

Chuks was the one calling. I quickly picked and waited for him to say something.

He was silent.

I could hear in the background slow music playing but he said nothing. I didn’t know what to say either, so I kept quiet.

Finally I cut the call to end the awkward silence. I felt empty thereafter. I felt so silly. Giving chuks a phone call was a bad idea. “What was I expecting?” I thought to myself.

Returning to my bed, I hit my shin hard on the bed frame. It hurt so bad that I began to cry.

I started to rain insults on Anita like she was the one who hit me on my shin.

“Why did chuks just have to do this to me despite the love we had?” What did he even see in that girl Anita. I felt so confused.

Honestly, I was prettier than her. I had a job that paid very well.

Still thinking about her phone vibrated.

I lazily stretched my hand to pick it up from the dresser. It was a message from chuks.

I hurriedly opened it. and it was chuks telling me how much he missed me and cherished what we had.

I felt a bit excited initially, then I began to feel sad again. I thought I wanted to get back with Chuks so bad, but now I was just confused. On the other hand nothing in the message specified that he wanted to get back with me.

I went back to read the message again, reading each word loudly like a child learning how to read. I needed an expert opinion on his message, and Ronke was the perfect person for the job. “But Ronke told me not to call Chuks,” I thought to myself.

I quickly sent a message to Ronke that I would be coming over her place tomorrow.